Agh

Is it just me or does everything that had to do with Joe have to go completely to shit. Anybody I got to know threw him. They were great people then what the eff. EVER since I had that seizure my life has gone threw a dramatic change. Either it scared people to death to hang out or I’m just not cool because I broke it off with Joe or it could be because I’m too much to handle, because I have been myself to ALOT of people lately and idk if alot of em like it, maybe there just retards and idiots and I just automactly think its okay to treat them like one or fuck with em. Poken fun at someone never hurt anybody. I dont know how to explain it.

But I have told myself I am going to throw my first official house party and the only people that are coming are mainly older then 29. But hey. They have lived and see all kinds of fun right? I’m sure I will have a select few young adults round mine&gages age. Probably not though.