Easter
Another holiday we have to celebrate without my Grandpa Don.
Last year didn’t seem that bad. I guess its because things weren’t really excepted, and okay.
These day’s have been getting better, But like always once something goes up it must come down.
My grandma Sandy is moving to my aunt Billies, she said she wants change and what not and yes there a lot of things that if i were to mention on here would be made into a novel. but the point of her moving is that she needs change, i am not really sure what change she is looking for, Aunt billie is totally against everything grandma wants to do in her spare time, and i cant help but feel like something or someone is taking our whole world we have built and crumbling it up into pieces.
This whole family isn’t the same anymore and it makes me think maybe the only reason anybody ever talked to one another was because Grandpa Don made them, not exactly made them..but because Grandpa made them see each other in ways that needed to be seen and felt.
My grandpa was the heart of the family. He made all things possible nothing was a loss cause to him, If there was anything negative he would never let you forget the positive rather it be staring you right in the face or you have to wait and work for it.
I was talking to mom and how grandpa always made sure he threw out some challenges in the egg hunts, our easter dinners, and all the laughs, watching him sit at the bar smoking a cigarette and make flattering gestures to my grandma. and of course all the videos wont have his voice in the back ground with him saying fantastic things, he was always filming us.
and all i can think about is that Amelia wont have any of that.
Amelia isn’t going to grow up with the one of kind family i did, She isn’t going to have a Grandpa don, and even though she has Grandma Sandy it still isn’t the woman i grew up with.
I wish my grandpa were here so much, amelia woulda loved him, and he would get the biggest kick out her.
I just cant help but feel like our family is distant and sad and ignorant and broken.
