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Sep 21st

This is the week

I start my new chapter in life. It give me butterflies when I think about it. I haven’t had butterflies since the first and second time I held Amelia after I delivered her. I am so excited. I got my insurance check in the mail and I am going shopping this week for everything I need! I’m over whelmed and very nervous, BUT in a good way. I’m ready!!

Sep 19th

I wish I could drive

and listen to music. It was such a great way to think about what really mattered, listen to songs that remind you that you can relate, that you need to pay attention to the road, moments where you just want to sing your head off, or just cry a few tears. I have court tomorrow for my DUI. Yes a DUI. Nothing bad. Just 2 points over the legal limit under 21 is 0.02 and I blew 0.04 and now I gotta...

Aug 30th

Got shackles on my words so tight Fear can make you compromise Fast enough it’s hard to hide Sometimes I want to disappear

Aug 29th

When I need friends the most. I don’t exactly have them. I regret this whole year nothing positive came out of it. I’m so angry.

Aug 29th

Watch

Oh gosh. She was/is wild

Aug 29th

Watch

Sarah this is Amelia chasing the light.

Aug 29th

Joe was suppose to see Amelia today but he ignored my calls and my texts. And then texted me telling me that he told me two days ago that he was helping this band the bang boom with there show and friends move. But was getting his daughter excited to see him all week long to see him. And she actually remembered to see him today. But once again I’m the dumbass because I forgot that he was...

Aug 28th

Agh

Is it just me or does everything that had to do with Joe have to go completely to shit. Anybody I got to know threw him. They were great people then what the eff. EVER since I had that seizure my life has gone threw a dramatic change. Either it scared people to death to hang out or I’m just not cool because I broke it off with Joe or it could be because I’m too much to handle, because...

Aug 27th

I'm scared.

Last week was a very emotional week, I felt like I had something to get off my chest, but I didn’t know what. I never longed for something like this. I never was so blunt with a few things I had said to a few people and I want to apologies but then I’m too embarresed to even to do that, I don’t know if I even need to. I hadnt ever been so emotionally selfish, although I...

Aug 25th

I want a Border Collie.

Miniature breed. Boy or girl. That or a pretty little puppy Lab. Pure breed.

Jul 10th

I feel like a zombie.

16 days until my Appointment in Iowa. SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIXtEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEn DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS……

Jun 27th

Neurosurgeon

Iowa July 13th. I’m so happy he could get me in so soon. I really hope he gets me and takes me serious. I feel like a weight has lifted off my shoulders. My headache medicine is helping a little bit but not all the way. Its pretty bad :(. I’m ready to feel better even If it take surgery. I’m sooo ready.

Jun 15th

Jun 8th

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Amelia

Is now sleeping in her own bed. for three weeks straight….or more. She refuses. Sommetimes she will get in bed in the morning wanting to cuddle. I knew she would do it when she was ready. but gosh.

May 15th

Theres always a new day. Always a new day to make a change and to be given another chance to smile while you can.

May 14th

Stupid dumb ungrateful whores.

This bitch is MARRIED to a guy that treats her like a princess seriously, doesn’t argue with her, lets things slide. Lets her spend an amazing amount of money on shit to decorate the house. Lets her buy clothes lets her do her shit. she probably is to lazy to go buy toilet paper and just wipes her ass with the money that he leaves on the counter for her to spend. anyway. They have a...

May 8th

May 6th

Norman music festival.

I was Levine with Joe to find sean. Turned down a one way street then stopped admittedly and backed up it a parking lot. Bam. Cop. I had a beer. Plus beer spilled on me. I passed the little teat except I had slurred words AS IF I NEVER HAVE BEFORE. ACTUALLY THAT’S HOW I TALK. Anyway. He arrested me for a suspected DUI and I blew a .05 I got in there at 1:00am. And got out at 9:11am. I...

May 1st

Easter

Another holiday we have to celebrate without my Grandpa Don. Last year didn’t seem that bad. I guess its because things weren’t really excepted, and okay. These day’s have been getting better, But like always once something goes up it must come down. My grandma Sandy is moving to my aunt Billies, she said she wants change and what not and yes there a lot of things that if i...

Apr 24th

I've got a busy month

I don’t know how to organize it. I have to get so many paintings done by May. and so far I’ve got NONE done. Its difficult. I am extremly depressed and physically broken. I don’t know how to get past it. Hopefully friday with the doctor things will go well, and we will be off on a long journey to making myself better. I am off to bed. agh.

Apr 6th

Mar 22nd

Amelia

Put my Iphone4 In the toilet. endofstory.

Mar 22nd

Mar 21st

LoveLove.

Mar 18th

Bad girls club.

I’m 20 years old and so much more mature then all them. It’s ridiculous. Wow.

Mar 15th

This weekend

Was good. Jake&Jennis was fun. As always. Yummy grilled burgers and such a great friendly safe environment it is over there. Flogging Molly is Tuesday. Aunt BB is going to watch Amelia and taken her to the zoo wednesday. I’ve got my ear plugs ready and I’m happily to admit I will be the DD for the night. It’s going to be a great expierence.

Mar 14th

Mar 11th

I try and stay positive. I don’t like being negative. I wishh I had my old friends.

Mar 9th

Mar 7th

it is impossible for me to have both. so it is done and over with.

Mar 6th

Is it

bad that once and awhile I put myself first? Emotionally&Physically im broken. and all i wanna do is run away. but instead im going to face my problems and learn to deal again. I’m trying to be selfish the best i can because if im not then ill lose it. all of it. Being selfish takes care of all that i care about. But it never fails that it looks different. Fuck.

Mar 6th

A Bowl Of Warm Air

Someone is falling towards you as an apple falls from a branch, moving slowly, imperceptibly, as if into a new political epoch, or excitedly like a dog towards a bone. he is holding in both hands everything he knows he has- a bowl of warm air. He has sighted you from afar as if you were a dramatic crooked tree on the horizon and he has seen you close up like the underside of a mushroom. but he...

Mar 5th

My stomach has a foot long from subway. 3 pizzas. Tuna sandwhich. fruity pebbles. Okra. Tatertots. It’s all been eaten over the past 3 days and I can’t poop. This medicine is fucked up. I feel like I am going to explode.

Mar 4th

Grey's anatomy.

Is amazing. Brothers&Sisters and Grey’s Anatomy. Are my favorites. :)

Mar 3rd

Feb 26th

My plaquniel was changed to 200mg. It was 50 mg. When I was on this high of a dose was 3…4 years ago and I took myself off of it because I wouldn’t eat. I couldn’t. The past week I have seen changes in my face, pimples and some sort of discoloration. Stomachs pains. Extreme nausea. More little headaches. And my hair is falling out. And weird dreams. I have read up on...

Feb 26th

Feb 25th

TMI

sarahfromharrah: I haven’t had a period since March. Or menstrual cramps…or pms. Fuck shit. That is about to end. Cramps started yesterday, and pms today. Booo! The first two months hurt the worst. But I never suffered real bad pms until after I had Amelia. The pain is terrible.

Feb 24th

Today made me feel ALOT better. I have fibromyalgia which explains everything. He gave me a new medicine and told me to go walking, and hot baths should help. A full nights rest is very important. And I need to eliminate stress. If the pain medicine n the things he told me to do doesn’t work then he will have to put me on a medication that will help but makes you gain weight n makes your...

Feb 18th

IWONTHERACE!: mad →

ibelievesupergreen: i haven’t really posted any of this drama bc it’s dramatic and i’m sure someday brandt will probably follow me on tumblr and see this but…i mean hopefully by that time something will be worked out. so saturday night i was at gage’s 21st birthday party which was, by the way, one of the best… Maybe he is afraid? Maybe he would like to see what the date is like with...

Feb 16th

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So.

I am struggling. I am going to the doctor Thursday and hopefully He can work something out with getting my pain under control. I am trying to be positive. but for the first time in a very long time I cant help but to be depressed.

Feb 16th

It is amazing how Babies/Toddlers can be so crazy and full of energy and then BAM asleep. Nuts.

Feb 15th